Again another sad post and it is about my.feelings! So today my first semester in college results released!
To be honest, I really hope to get at least an A- for English and the rest is B! Because you cannot grade much for project works right? Actually, all my assignments are arts, and different people have different views and opinion about my art. Some people say its beautiful but some may think it is ugly. So I did not really care about my other results except English because of people's different mindset. But, I got it wrong.
What is wrong? Me? Or just others? I seem to not care about my results like I used to be in high school but the others, they just tend to compete with each other and such.
Let me just write it here, I do not want to compete my results with any of my coursemates and all I really want is to compete with myself. I just want to make sure for the next semester I will do well.
Today, people will start chatting with me and asking about my results. They just want to know my result so much. Competitor spirit lol.
All I am writing above are craps man..
Sometimes when people get high results with you and then they started becoming rivals and such.. I just want to avoid that. I dont want anyone to be my rival and such in college. Also, I really want to challenge myself only.. I do not really want to know the others results because I am just afraid I will start comparing and feel sad, guilty and such. I want to have a comfortable and fun study life in college. Not like in high school :/ and to be honest, I dont want anyone to know mine too because my senior once told me that, when she tells out her results to her coursemates, everyone start being close to her, wants to be the same team, and such.
Because they want to get as great results as my seniors. Not sure if this is the same thing going on with my coursemates though. :/
And one of my friend is actually bothering me :/ not sure if he is lying or what. Just feel uncomfortable :(
Everyday is an exciting day. Lets hope what happens tomorrow! Goodnight :) ending of with my selfie HAHAHAAHHAHA